Today I promised my kiddos to take them to swimming at UiTM.. unfortunately, the weather is not good... I figure out what excuses to give to the kids... but, then I realise, giving excuses is not the 'right' way to escape from the guilt. One thing I realise, this kids, the tend to do what we do... seriously.. I mean, lately, my little daughter, started to repeat what I say, sometimes, she 'practising' the phrases to her friends and her brother.. same goes to my son, he started to scold his little sister, the way I scold him... so what should I do now? I think... I need to learn from them. I need to be a little patience... which is very difficult to do...at this point of time, where all of the segments in my brain are filled with stuffs like, 'what experiment to do tomorrow, why is my results not good, why my fabricator did this mistake, when to go to US?, who to go with, where should i leave the kids while I am away?' or things like ' what to cook?, what to wear? what my husband wants to wear tomorrow?, what my kids want to wear tomorrow?, what they want to do tomorrow?'.... and no space for 'the most precious time with them'.. pity them huh?... these are the things that I really need to change... slowly redirect my focus to my kids.. without jeopardising my studies.. or is it the other way round? so... I think I need to get home now and spend more time with them especially, when I am a bit free since I have declaring off day for the day..... On a second thoughts, I bring them to Acuatic Center this evening.....
Wish me luck with the parenting session
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My precious childeren, Raja Adam Wafiq, Raja Afrin Zulaikha.... I love you so much..
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